Could it be that you know something is wrong, you’re not doing anything about it, you’re messed up and you’re suffering because of it? And you’re not doing anything about it?
My “baby” at work is my iMac 2.0Ghz with 1GB RAM pre-installed. I have this since a year and a half ago. In the past few months, my demand at work slowly increased until the time that I realize I have more than a dozen applications open. Adium, Yahoo IM, Firefox, Safari, Coda, Photoshop, iTunes (need music, baby!), Word, Tweetie and a number of other applications, working all at the same time. Why, I can’t help it, I need all of them!
This scenario has been killing my iMac. It crawls — and I mean, crawwwlll. And it’s killing me too! Until yesterday when I decided to get poorer by P1,500 and get an additional 2GB of RAM. The result? My mind can’t even comprehend, I can’t type in the words, I’m speachless … I’m just… just… this is awesome, dude! Just awesome. These applications plus all others include a Windows XP machine running via VirtualBox — all running at the same time. Will I need anything more? I’ve suffered for months and the solution is something I know, but didn’t do it because I’m just not interested.
During my quiet time today, I’ve come to thinking — isn’t this something more like life? I mean, for most of our problems, we actually know the solutions. We’re suffering because we decided not to do anything about it. It could be a wrong relationship, a wrong habit, a wrong direction in life. You know it, you just don’t want to solve it.
The reality is, with the help of God and godly friends, you can overcome that problem. It could just be an “upgrade” — an upgrade in your relationship with God, doing the right thing even if it’s hard, or just thinking about that better direction for your life.
I realize I sound preachy. But I’m not preaching at you. I’m preaching to all of us because I’m not excepted to this, too.
So, get that upgrade. I did. Look at me. I’m dancing. I’m typing with 15 high powered, memory hog applications open.
PS: Friday Night Experience at Grace Place tonight talks about the lie “I’m not good enough”. Try it. It’s happening at Tiara Oriental Hotel.