“Ayaw ko na!”

Have you ever felt quiting from what you are doing and just go back to where you were at in the past?

(To my foreign readers, the title can be loosely translated as “I give up!”)

That’s exactly what I’m feeling right now. I want to shout on top of my lungs, “Ayaw ko na!”

There was a time when life is so simple. I get up at 6 am, brush my teeth, eat breakfast, ride the jeepney to office, read numbers and balance sheets and bank recons, waits for 5 pm, then go home and watch TV. For 5 days a week, I do that.

And now? I wake up to see failures in my team, an angry client and a speechless, pathetic me.

The only thing that’s keeping me sane is God and his promises, that “…God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.” (Rom. 8:28) I’m looking forward for the time when I look back and see why these things are happening and that it even brought good out of the bad.

  • http://www.gannsdeen.com Ganns

    *hug*

    I’m praying for you, bro.

  • http://www.gannsdeen.com Ganns

    *hug*

    I’m praying for you, bro.

  • iiii

    Hey, man, If you can’t take the heat, then get out of the kitchen.

  • iiii

    Hey, man, If you can’t take the heat, then get out of the kitchen.

  • http://arnoldgamboa.com Arnold

    Hey Ganns,

    Thanks for the prayers – and the hug – I needed those badly.

    iiii,

    Getting out of the kitchen would mean I’m going to leave the people who are with me in the kitchen and are also taking the heat. That would be selfish of me. :) Thanks for the concern, though.

  • http://arnoldgamboa.com Arnold

    Hey Ganns,

    Thanks for the prayers – and the hug – I needed those badly.

    iiii,

    Getting out of the kitchen would mean I’m going to leave the people who are with me in the kitchen and are also taking the heat. That would be selfish of me. :) Thanks for the concern, though.

  • iiii

    I wasn’t concerned. Just too much complaining instead of facing reality.

  • iiii

    I wasn’t concerned. Just too much complaining instead of facing reality.

  • http://arnoldgamboa.com Arnold

    Thanks for coming back. But really, this is my blog and I can complain all I want.

  • http://arnoldgamboa.com Arnold

    Thanks for coming back. But really, this is my blog and I can complain all I want.

  • chelle

    kuya arnold, it’s sad to read this kind of post from you…but its also inspiring to see and feel you acting more human…you’re so true..

    we all face this kind of situation and thanks God coz He’s always there…

    i still admire you for being you kuya….

    God knows your heart. God bless po!

  • chelle

    kuya arnold, it’s sad to read this kind of post from you…but its also inspiring to see and feel you acting more human…you’re so true..

    we all face this kind of situation and thanks God coz He’s always there…

    i still admire you for being you kuya….

    God knows your heart. God bless po!